Confusions of the mind.

Some pictures I took today.

To see a world in a grain of sand,
and still the mind
in moments of darkness.
Is that not something.

Standing in the temple,
loves pain remains with me.
The sun shines intensely
piercing the air, to be born again

One flower, two flowers,
one bird, two birds.
This is my total existence,
a perfect way – to be born again.

Impressions

That’s how it starts
walking in the middle of now, here.
LCD Soundsystem,
and an easy morning sun.

A northern shimmer,
deep inside a faded city.
And the animal in me,
already in the birth of a new moment.

Me and Bob Dylan, again

First picture: http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/bob-dylan-artwork-go-view-217297 Second picture : my drawing

Sometimes I dream of sunshine,
but not often.

Last night Bob Dylan appeared,
riding on soft marshmallow clouds…..
a contrived visual modality.

“Bob Dylan? What are you doing here” said I.

As the night unfolded….. there was a quest to write and dream.

And as the clouds left
Bob told me

“You know… this world is ours, all of ours…
but is run by people who never listen to music, anyway”

With that the dream drifted away,
like a bottle on a journey.
So empty to be.

All I need

My pictures: I went to see a concert tonight at Henan Normal University in Henan. To hear Western classical music played with such individual interpretation and passion… by Shi Meng Xiao… a post graduate student at Henan Normal University…. was simply a very special moment for me….

Relentless April days,
it hit me without warning.
Schubert , the most poetic musician
Absorbing light, deep within
……a soak right to the bone.

Until that moment there’s pain,
for simply being.
Then tall birds gathered
Chopin and Bach,
and three became as one.

How to spend a Sunday

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A picture sent to me by a friend yesterday.

Before sleeping I often consider
what I would do, what to be the next day.

Shall I be a mother, beautiful and delicious… flying kites in the park
as the sun sets on another unrequited day?

Shall I be a teacher, not much interested in another awakening
of a long dead language to come?

Shall I be a writer trying to meet others as lonely as myself?

Sometimes there is a strange justice, working for something….

So, I marked some English papers…..
I am exactly what I am supposed to be.

Birds and Flight

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My Picture: Some friends I met in Xiahe in Gannan Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture, Gansu, China.

A deep black satin of the night…
happy hour……
nourishes these broken crowns
…..and words outside their usual habitations.

The only know language
a whipped-up, fading cobalt sky
….and traces of thought
as thin as pins.

And as the girl settles her garments,
a spider with a hidden sting…..
spark fast the blackness of the night.
Like the days before rock and roll
…..and syncopates of love.

What we overlook

My Pictures: A new bookshop opened today in Xinxiang.

January cold in Xinxiang,
I met a young woman
who told me a sad story
about a boy from England.
She looked battle torn,
her eyes clouded
by his tormented life.

Hidden from the sun…
was herself…..
a blazing grassland
at its summertime height…
loving with strongest feeling.

With wounds of past regrets,
I told her that responsibilities float
away on each breath,
by the here and now and tomorrow.

Bob Dylan’s Harmonica

The book shop owner in Xinxiang
gave me Bob Dylan’s harmonica today.
At least he said it was Bob’s,
and that was good enough for me.

So I played a tune,
and it was like it used to be.
When my head was high
and I was a king.

Before the signs of the cross,
cold and blunt
and things that worry me.

Then everything had to be replaced,
and I forgot about being a king.
One future was traumatic enough.

Yesterdays Sun

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My Picture

Most days on my way to the café for coffee,
a homely comfort in a foreign place.
There is a man I see, a bleeding soul
in this vacant place.

He sleeps mainly on the grass verge,
always rough and unwashed.
Lays like an animal too ready for winter.
And the people pass him by.

The whole process shows desperation,
no such helpmates or a plight to bear.
A sickness of the mind, steeped in
ancient rules of deception.

Some see an empty space, some a sleeping dog.
And some an inconvenience from where they lie.
None of them see the whispers invading their
perceptions.

Yesterday the sun was setting, half asleep.
I remembered once feeling the
sun, and seeing half a yellow daffodil pale
blowing left and right.
Another heart broken race.

So I took some coffee and slice of
coconut cake to the man.
Undone with misery, he said something
I did not understand.

I thought, I am bitter sometimes
but the taste of life was one day sweet.
I was loved by goodness, and that was enough.