Tattered memories

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To be lonely, and raise my face
to a mirror on life.
To gaze at the stars every night
and lament for nothing.
Is to waver between
life and death – and
become a single-body.
That moment, when even
the rushing streams cease
all their flowing
And the hills and mountains,
overturn.

Walking through rain

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My picture: a rainstorm over the city.

Dark skies in Xinxiang,

liberated from the mask

of blue summer days.

A single soul, braves the dark

– bending to drink the rain water

…..in a shadow puddle left.

Returning years

My pictures

7 hours of marking, a matter of choice.

Neurotransmitters

unfathomable, vast and empty.

Apoptosis and the death of cancer

always on a journey, ill

DNA and a cause for everything,

a mutation here

and a blue-eyed wonder boy there.

 

In the end,

I wanted to howl like Ginsberg

to feed my patience.

To learn to think,

and clean a wound that won’t close.

Another shadow in a fading light,

a vast and empty hole.

Walking in the garden with Qu Yuan

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My drawing: Today is Dragon Boat Festival in China: The Dragon Boat Festival (Duanwu Festival, Duānwǔ Jié, Double Fifth, Tuen Ng Jit) is a traditional holiday that commemorates the life and death of the famous Chinese scholar Qu Yuan (Chu Yuan).The festival occurs on the fifth day of the fifth month on the Chinese lunisolar calendar. So…I sketched this drawing of Qu Yuan (a poet and politician)

 

I did not know you last night,

then the doctors and nurses

….. the souls of China….

told me about your mountain spirit

and banners of cassia.

 

So I thought of bamboo groves,

and sky still unseen.

And how the thunder rumbles

and rain darkens

after all these years.

Me and Bob Dylan, again

First picture: http://www.hollywoodreporter.com/news/bob-dylan-artwork-go-view-217297 Second picture : my drawing

Sometimes I dream of sunshine,
but not often.

Last night Bob Dylan appeared,
riding on soft marshmallow clouds…..
a contrived visual modality.

“Bob Dylan? What are you doing here” said I.

As the night unfolded….. there was a quest to write and dream.

And as the clouds left
Bob told me

“You know… this world is ours, all of ours…
but is run by people who never listen to music, anyway”

With that the dream drifted away,
like a bottle on a journey.
So empty to be.

Understanding pain

My pictures…and my students words…

I talked to the students about pain today,
it was one of those days.
My pain for you and the world,
a sweet singing and a tainted image.
What is means to be truly human.

If time was replayed
I would give more heart, your way.
And through the winters fog and mists,
slow down… breathe deeply and see the whole world… right here.

Some students gave me words,
for me a new delight.

The dark thoughts, the shame and guilt,
that swarm like bees from time- to-time
….. now traded with caution.

Then life can move forward,
never stepping back from fear.
And ghosts do not haunt me, for now.

How it is

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My Picture: Reflections on marking work and drinking coffee yesterday.

So they cheated again,
I told them not to copy,
not to steal words from others.
But they did,
it felt like depressions in the ground.

Even more alarming, few of the teachers cared
…..all black and no light.

I guess there is nothing so boring,
as an aging academic who thinks he is a poet.
Banging on about integrity and periods of agony.

Sometimes it is easy to hide the poems,
Then begins the search…..it always begins.