Catching the bus

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My Picture: Xinxiang, Henan Province am this morning.

Riding on the bus this morning was not easy.
An hour to think,
about the unhappy, the bitter
and the unrequited.

Solitary existences that
exacerbate our sense of obligation,
and focus our thoughts
on life beyond the planets.

Dancing thought the potholes,
I listened to a podcast
on ‘hope’……
or how darkness scatters
and life goes on.

Listening to the sound of marching feet,
the poems simmered in my head.
And as the morning fog entered
the broken day, I was just glad to be here
and alive.

City Lights

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My Picture: Xinxiang City, Henan Province, China.

I walk the city,
metallic taste in my mouth.
The roadside dust chews the sky.

Cars running
all miles away.
Laughing like fools.

Passing headlights
under a moon.
Not telling you the whole dream.

These apartment blocks
have nothing to say,
yet keep on saying it.

Evening coolness
pierces the nights first star.
I can see why
it is so easy to go crazy.

Pulled down shade

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My Picture: Xinxiang Medical University (taken this evening)

The questions usually come in swarms
“Why did you come to China?”
“How old are you”
“Are you married….”
“Have you had some food?”

So, I usually tell them
I came to China for money
and to find a beautiful Chinese wife.
Something I thought was not possible.

Or I tell them about a fire inside
that ended in dust and disarray.
So they can see what I am dealing with,
and how you can’t always plan on the heart.

For some this is a first awakening,
and for others….
they can see what happens
when you sink into your dreams.

About Pain

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My Picture: Statue for the people, Beijing, China.

Sometimes I feel the cold,
usually it snaps and rips
at my bones.
Half hating you,
half describing life as a poet
walking the river of time.

But then again,
promptly and unexpected
a fire emerges from the cold despair.
A timid word,
a tenderness nothing can stop.
No matter who lives.

Dimensions of Space

 

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My Picture (taken this evening): Xinxiang City, Henan, China.

When I walk around the city,
I have a sinking feeling sometimes.
We flow even when we stand,
searching for an elusive enemy.

As night slams down,
lights hover soft in an ageless dance.
Minutes and seconds turn their heads,
and I long for something far away.

Snow

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My Picture: Xinxiang, Henan Province, China.

A few faded cracked snowflakes
softly down on my hair.
Decorate this silence,
whitewashing the patched
walls of Xinxiang.
A fire deepens the silence,
but my soul now has depth.

Morning Rituals

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My Picture: View above Xiahe  Gannan Tibetan Autonomous Prefecture, Gansu province, China.

Coffee first thing in the morning,
unfolding yesterday’s copy of China Daily.
I read the headlines,
you can see what I am dealing with.
An old bent and sour universe,
rancor dripping from the neon sign
that says ‘ Number 1 Hospital’.

Outside the youngest people in the universe,
discounted and distributed
wonder what wonderful things they are missing.
Each one looking for something
to be marked at a glance,
a consummate victory of sorts.

Here comes the music now,
that melts the night-shadow pools,
and reflects the morning peace.

A voice within

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My Picture: Helping a friend…..

The young woman asked me
“Why are you a poet?”
It was not a difficult question to answer.

I told her about the world being silent,
but for the gentle sound of a warming wind and the fluttering rain.

She looked confused.
Her eyes, so expressive
like a dangling drop of dew.

So I told her
“I am just glad to open-up and meet the thoughts of the past”

My Friends

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My Picture: Terracotta Army, Lintong, Xi’an, Shaanxi, China.

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This one lives with his mother,
and has never kissed a woman intending to please.
This one has no boyfriend
and thinks her legs are fat.
This one listens to Jay Chou,
on secret mornings driving back to his wife.
But at least his students are happy.
This one likes Micheal Jackson, and
practices moonwalking late at night,
alone and hidden from the outside world.
This one is a policeman
who thinks Britain is still great.
And the other, abandoned by wife after wife
finds hope in a cheap bottle of French wine.
This one wants be a professor,
but finds Charles Bukowski
rude and sexist.
And this one wants to be a poet
but is bored by the romantics,
and almost everyone is a poet anyway.
These are my friends
the poet, the teacher, the policeman, the professor… and me.